Selfish Jealousy and Corny Metaphors

Today was a pretty good day, mostly because I got ~12 hours of sleep. ANYWHO, I hung out with Liam and Vincent a bit today, who are two of my Asian pals. Vincent had to go to badminton, though, so for about two hours it was just Liam and I.

It's hard to explain how I feel about being friends with Liam. He's one of those friends who's exceptionally amiable and extroverted to the extent that he is "everybody's buddy". That being said, I have an odd resentfulness to that breed of person. I agree, it's nice to be friends with someone who is kind, funny, and entertaining, but it's hard to measure how good your relationship is with that person if they act the same way to everyone they know. Personally, I prefer friends that are more "specialized" in a way. It's hard to explain.... here, I'll give you an example. Say someone comes up to me and is all like "Wazzup dude." We become quick friends, but that same person is always busy talking to other people. Then, I see some other guy sitting alone at a table and I say hi to him. We also become friends, but he prefers to talk with me then to other people. I prefer the second type of person. I guess I just prefer the unique attention one gets from that kind of friend in contrast to the manufactured kindness of the other (I have to say this, though: even if Liam's kindness is manufactured, it's extremely similar to the real deal... which, simply put, is what caused me to be confused in the first place). 

To be honest, I think I feel this way out of jealousy. Liam seems to know everybody East of the Pacific, and the fact of the matter is that I wish he would treat me with more attention than others. The problem there is that I can't tell if he is doing so already. We've only known each other since the beginning of school (August), so it's hard to judge. Maybe I'll ask him some time. I'll get back to you on that.

Anyway, we had plenty of fun. When I got back, I had a lot of homework to do: Spanish, Alg. II, and Bio. Actually, I still have some Biology homework.... just a little, though ;)

Tomorrow, I have to go back to school, which worries me. I'm not worried about the algebra quiz I have tomorrow, nor about the homework I'll have to do, nor the five laps we have to run, nor about the new fifth graders I'm going to have to mentor for music mentoring. All that stuff is a constant in life; it's all predictable. Only the variables worry me: in other words, the people I'm going to talk to. Will they still be friendly, or are they too cool for me now? Yes, I am highly paranoid and self-conscious :P

That's about it. I hope that tomorrow will be a smooth transition out of the relaxation of break into the steady pounding of high school's hammer. Just practicing my metaphors....

Ryan